I'm not on for long--just wanted to wish a happy birthday to ainohimeliz and tri_injury! (Yeah, I know it's not till tomorrow. Shut up.)

I technically shouldn't be doing this, but I wanted to say something.

So my parents said that I get my privileges back if I have all A's and B's at the end of the quarter. The quarter ends tomorrow. Here's how we're standing:

Band: A (ha ha)
English: F (yeah okay shut up)
Statistics: D (like, a 69.2, which makes me so mad)
Spanish: B
Chemistry: B
Journalism: A (omfg)
American History: B

All in all...

I am so freaking screwed. >_<

I feel like I'm going out of my mind here. Really. I just...I want this all to stop.

Gahhhhhhhh.

So, you probably won't see much more of me for a while yet. I miss you all, though. <:(

So I'm kind of grounded. Or, rather, I'm only allowed one hour of Internet a week, on a freaking dial-up computer.

I have all sorts of resentment and anger about this whole situation, and I could spend quite a while ranting about how mad I am. But I honestly don't have the time.

So, just know that I will be out of commission for a while, and I'm really sorry that I can't really read your entries. If you have any friends cuts while I'm gone, I'd appreciate it if you didn't delete me, but I understand if you really want to.

And with that, I'm about up. Later, everyone. -_-

Lately I've been feeling...ugh. Kind of down. Embittered toward religon, toward people--toward life in general.

I'm also thinking that I'm going to finish up all my ongoing Twilight fanfictions and then just quit that particular fandom. It just...sucks. And the stupid people at my school don't help much either.

I'm sorry about being bitter all the time, too. -_- This can't be that fun to read. Meh.

My Internet came back for good last night. :D Yay!

I know I missed over a week of friend entries, and it'll take me a while to get caught up. But bear with me, people. I swear I still love you!

I'm so sorry about the super long leave of absence. We had an ice storm, which knocked out our phone lines--and since I'm on dial-up, that meant no Internet.

Actually, the phones at my house are still out. I'm bumming the Internet off the hospital, which I couldn't do before because I didn't leave my house for a week. Mehhhh. -_-

Anyway, I have lots to do, so I'll sign off now. I just wanted to say hey. Sorry about being gone so long!!!!

I'm on a snow/ice day today. And although I should be working on an essay that's due tomorrow, I'm not.

Some things never change.

In other news...

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Yeah. Not much.

Uh...I love you all?

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I stole it from someone...And, uh, I actually really like this... :)

So someone told me a while back that they couldn't message me because of my privacy settings.

How do I fix this?

I don't have anything to say. None at all.

I just felt this compulsive need to update.

For those of you who watch Mothership Law & Order: See my icon. Worship my icon. You know you love it.

=D

Since I have nothing of substance to say, I just have a quick question. Does anyone know where to find some mood themes? I'm currently attempting to make one, but I'd like something to go off of. :)

So I didn't actually watch the Golden Globes. I just looked up the results after they were over. -__-'

But, um, yeah. A little disappointed that Mariska Haritgay didn't win for SVU, but I still maintain that D'Onofrio and Erbe both need to get nominations because, um, THEY ROCK.

And of course Heath Ledger won. He couldn't just not win. They can say his death didn't affect them, but it did. -_- (I have nothing at all against Heath Ledger, of course! I swear!! He's wonderful!)

Apart from that, um...there really wasn't a whole lot on there that I'd heard of. Oh, well. Now I'm waiting for the Academy Awards...

School has been...meh. Okay, I guess. Just...school.

Mehhhhhh. I've been a little worried about everything lately. I need another vacation already. But nothing until Spring Break...

I'm watching L&O: SVU right now. Olivia Benson is so good...But she's flashing back to her assault and putting guns to people's heads...God, she's scaring me...Please wake up, Liv...

I think I'm gonna go now; I'm not saying anything of substance. Later...

I seriously could not remember that I updated this morning. I thought that was last night. But it was this morning?

Um...

...

Yeah.

Anyway.

School starts tomorrow. Whoopee. I hate school so much. I have seriously figured out that it is the root of every single one of my problems.

My God, though. I'm a little...scared. I mean, my dad's refused to take me to a shrink twice in my lifetime now. What happens, then?

Oh, well. I guess it's no good worrying. And there is one thing perking me up. While my brother's family was here, my sister-in-law helped me color my hair. :) It now has streaks of red in it. No one at school knows, and it's gonna be a super huge surprise to everyone. Woot!

Ask me a question about one (or all) of the following:

1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. LJ
7. Porn
8. The Future

Hmm...It's 2009!!!

Um, I really didn't have a whole lot to say other than that.

Oh, I know!

New Year's Resolutions

- At least try to start turning in a bit more work.
- Become less passive. Fight for your right to party! Stand up for yourself!
- Start on a novel. Hopefully get a good way towards finishing said novel.
- Improve relationship with the parental units. They're paying for your college; they must be kept happy.
- Try to be more positive and less negative. Bad attitudes do indeed depress your friends.
- Do something about the things that bother you.
- Quit dwelling on the past so much.

Of course, who knows if any of these will actually happen? But it makes me feel better to see them in writing, at least.

Happy New Year!

It's my last entry of 2008...Huh.

My brother did indeed come, and so I am upstairs with my two nieces. But we've all generally gone to doing our own thing, so no one's giving me a hard time about being on the computer.

Oh, my 14-year-old niece is reading Full Moon! It makes me so so happy to spread the love of the best manga series ever~~~~ :D Oh, I love Full Moon...!

Well! Overall, this year has been a mixed bag. I finally let go of some old feelings, only to get my heart broken twice more (there's been a lot I haven't put on the blog). I learned some things, I screwed up others. But, overall, we've all survived, huh?

Have a great New Year, everyone! *raises glass for toast* WHOO!

My brother might be coming after all?! Um, when did this happen?

MOOOOMMM! This is why I don't like you talking on the phone too long! *tears out hair* You do this on me...!

BROTHER OF MINE! We're not just some afterthought, you know?! I was making plans!!! Now, what, you're going to do this again? Whaaaa?

LIFE!!! Why are you being so weird~~??!

I'm sorry that I'm acting weird, guys--I'm just...confused! Things seem to be going by without me knowing it, or something!

My brother ended up not coming. And my mom is royally ticked off--and rightly so. It's complicated, I guess...

But! That's not what I want to talk about. So that's all you get to hear on that~

I got Guitar Hero: World Tour! Yay. :D My parents were gonna wait and give it to me once my niece had opened hers, but since they ended up not coming, they gave it to me anyway. Um, only now I can't get the drum set to work~~~~ >_<

And also! I got my ACT results. Here they are, 'cause I'm unashamed.

English: 33
Math: 21
Reading: 34
Science: 22

Composite: 28

It wasn't so bad after all. I knew Math and Science were going to suck, anyway.

So, yeah! That's about it. Laters!

Christmas cheer is a little low around our house at the moment.

I'll spare you all the gruesome details, but here's the short version: My brother, who was supposed to come for Christmas (the previously mentioned "family," yes?), ended up not coming today because they, um...supposedly got up too late and were too tired. Mom really laid into him on the phone, saying that she was second-best to him and that he only cared about her money. And she could hear other relatives of theirs in the background, too...

Shockingly enough, I'm taking my mom's side here. Although I love my brother and I'm really disappointed that they might not be able to make it after all, it really does sound like he doesn't appreciate her enough.

But, um, now I feel like a hypocrite. Because it's not like my mom and I have a picture-perfect relationship, but...I try hard...

Um! I think I need to stop with the angst...And especially on Christmas!

Anyway...I did get a very nice new radio--which was good, because the antenna on mine has been broken for a while. And a lava lamp, which was cool once I figured out how to assemble it. ;)

Oh, and I also got an IOU for Guitar Hero: World Tour once it's back in stores! The story on this one is that I asked for it for my birthday, but instead, my parents got it for my fourteen-year-old niece (...) as a Christmas present. I wasn't that sad, though, really...And I will see it one day, yes? Yes!

Do I sound weird? I go back and read my words, and I feel like I sound funny.

Well, I'm going to sign off now. I hope you all had wonderful holidays! :D